I came back home as someone else. When I was carrying my comrade out of the shelling, I was thinking only about one thing: that he would keep breathing. That we would survive. That we would return together.
I didn’t feel my face. There was no pain then — only smoke, hot wind, and the heavy body on my shoulders.
When the shell exploded very close, it felt as if someone had pulled me out of reality. I heard my own breath, I heard my heartbeat.
After that, everything changed. My face got burned. They say I look different now.
When I entered the house, my son ran toward me. I froze. He looked at me and screamed: — That’s not my dad! That’s a monster!
I didn’t get angry. I didn’t even have the strength to raise my hand. In that moment, I realized: I was no longer the man who had left for the war.
But there, beneath the skin, behind the scars, I remained myself. The one who carried his friend, who held a weapon, who thought of his son in every battle.